No one likes a Debbie Downer. No one.
Lately, I've felt as though I've been wearing this title all too often.
Please believe me, I'm not proud of it, and each day I strive to keep on the sunny side.
Let me explain.
A year ago I pined to leave a small border town in Texas where he attended training.
Our prayers were answered and suddenly we ended up in a place many refer to as paradise.
It's been swell in a lot of ways, really. We learned so much with this past move.
As a result we're stronger in that sweetsy Sugarland "Stuck Like Glue" kinda way.
Some might think, is this girl that hard to please? Perhaps.
It's just that we're learning we had something pretty great. Sometimes we spend so much time wishing for something other than what we have. It's easy to get caught up in all of the wants.
A year ago, he was home every night for dinner. No matter the kind of day we had, we knew we could relish our evening walk TOGETHER with our dogs. It was pretty great, and I miss it. I didn't realize at the time how great those little moments were.
Now I know you may think that someone in my position would be aware that it might be like this, and you're exactly right! I knew what I was getting into; now I'm learning (and working ) to be good at it. I would be sugarcoating it to say it's been an easy change. I'm proud of what he does. It's just all this time apart has given me an unexpected gift -- a realization that I've got to cherish the little moments.
I've got to take advantage of the time we're together, even if it's a few days here and there. I won't spend any time looking back, but I'm so grateful for another life lesson. I'm here now.
They call it the present for a reason, and I'll treat it as such.
After all, isn't it better to have someone to miss?